At your station in life a common difficulty for fools arises from a strong attachment to ideals. Big attachment is big difficulty Grashopper. My Uncle Barb told me once that you spend the first 3rd of your life aspiring, the 2nd acquiring and the 3rd, figuring out what to do with them both. You're still in your 1st, and I'm in my 3rd. Nice separation don't you agree? Don't leave all your aspirations at the door, ever. One thing I've learned over and over and over again: life is not going to be anything near the way I wish it would be. Not a friggin bit of it. No one thinks like I do, no one. Case closed on that Dylan; suffering and apparently stupidity is baked in. The case was closed before you were born and came up with your own version of how things are supposed to be. Before you even made your first shit in a diaper! This is not a bad thing, or something to be mad at, in fact, this truality is your way out! I'm 53 and still working the anger problem. Go figure.
In many ways it's not your fault, you were born into a line of wonder-intelligents. Nothing to complain or brag about, just watch um and come to your own conclusions about your bloodline. It's just another one, just watch um and come to your own conclusions about your bloodline. Don't make me say it again! I consider myself an honorary member of your family, because of their love, not their intelligence, as you may have already guessed! I would stand with all of them through anything, anytime. Try me. The best of these things is part of you, one day you will agree with all your heart, I imagine you already do. In your case, you got the poet-gene which probably skips at least a generation or two, and sets you out on a journey that involves poverty of everything normal or moral in your case!
I believe you're ahead of your time and the game when you recognize that poets (brainiacs) can get lost in pessimism, negativity, etc. Being able to recognize your negativity is a positive. (Recognize) Negative = Positive. Tell yourself the stories you want to believe without stop, without hesitation. We are story tellers. You are a story, tell it well. Don't let your circumstances get in the way of your happiness, your love. Ever. Right this minute, pay attention to your next story, tell it better than ever! That's what I'm doing. Don't worry about the others, you handle your story. Like a god, enjoy this beautiful existence. There is nothing I dislike, is a good starting place. Don't let your ideals piss in your cheerios, what a waste.
One more thing. There's a lot of big energy invested in our way of life on this planet and in particular this society Dylan. It's bigger than you and me. It's mostly unconscious. But it's not intrinsically bad. Goodness comes from good thinking, not from circumstance. Them damn circumstances, check um at the door, we got bigger fish to fry.
you are loved, you are so loved, long before me, you were loved completely and delightfully, as your dad would say. your bobJuan.
bobJuan,
ReplyDeleteI love you.